Jealousy...

is a sucky and damaging emotion to have. It eats into your confidence and it makes you feel like crap even when you know you shouldn't be feeling that that.

I have never thought as myself as a jealous girlfriend or anything. In fact I was quite proud that I could have that level of trust with someone to not feel an ounce of jealousy. Unfortunately for me, I realize that these recent years events have turned me into a slight paranoid and insecure person when it comes to a boy-girl relationships.

So now I have a situation where I'm working in the same office with my boyfriend and recently my boss hired this new girl who was recommended by my boyfriend to join. So naturally I put them to be seated together because she needs to learn since my boyfriend is her friend and also the right person to learn from. Which now landed me in the situation that I see them together all the time. Laughing and talking all the time. Which pretty much make me feel even more insecure. Oh did I mention that they know each other way longer then I know my boyfriend.

In recent event, the new girl was out with other colleagues for lunch and apparently she couldn't fit in with the others so she texted my boyfriend to go accompany. My boyfriend asked if I wanted anything and he himself suggested to get me something. Was busy with some stuff and before I could decided on anything (which actually I wanted something else), he *poof* and disappeared. So I thought alright he'll get me something anyway. He came back and I noticed he did not get anything. What the hell. So what am I suppose to think. The girl called and up he went to her rescue straight away. Never waited for my answer and he just left. Then why the hell ask me in the first bloody place. So pointless.

Maybe I should just quit my job here and save my sanity before it's too late.

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Note: I'm just looking for a place to vent because clearly I'm unhappy and my boyfriend is not doing anything to help me along. Saying that he loves me only and that nothing is up with that girl is so not comforting at all.
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